I know I should be doing work but I am feeling sad today.
I am feeling sad today because I was too cold last night and woke up with a sore throat. Then came down stairs to find ants had taken over my kitchen and my house mate hadn’t kept it tidy.
Proactively I went on a cleaning blitz of the whole house and went to Freedom to buy new things and I cleaned out all the things from the cardboard boxes we have from moving in and then I put them in the recycling bin too.
I found some pests under my house mates cricket gear and so I vacuumed it and put it upstairs. I was so happy because I had removed all the stains and the house no longer smelt and the cleaning was a good distraction for all the other things in my head - like how I am getting sick again.
Then my house mate comes home angry at me because I moved all of his things, my other house mate comes in and goes straight to bed with another person. I didn’t want to feel like I needed congratulating on what I did today but I tried to make my environment more positive and then people who are in negative moods come home.
I’m getting cold and I’m nervous about my doctor’s appointment on Thursday and I’m nervous about all the overdue work I have yet to do but don’t know how to do.
I don’t know what to do. I am all out of ideas. I just want to be happy.
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